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| @ school, using my new laptop, nice and happy. been to six flags with key club yesterday, excited. everything seems so exciting and fun ^^ Especially this coming friday, cantonese fellowships gathering, can't wait till it. I will probably be making tiramisu this friday, hope that they will like it... so scared, i am never good in cooking :S ~~~~~~ Thank God, making everyday a blessing for me ^^ | | |
| I sometimes do wonder whats the point of this and that. Whats the point of making friends at school? Whats the point of doing all the things that I never like to do to cheer them up? But when it got to my church friends, most of the time, I felt useless. I wanted to help, but I didn't seem like helping things out but to make it worst. I wonder, why all I could do is make things worst? Especially when I am with my church friends, I felt like useless.... But what about school friends? Well, I never really cared (I thought). I never really bothered to make new friends. I sometimes feel like they scared me, when that happens, I became so offensive to them. However, I got some nice friends at school too. Which, I felt comfortable with, comfortable to share and talk with. Those, I called them my best friends at school. Which, at least, I cared about them. Sometimes I would think, whats the point of me? but then...I felt guilty. God made everyone good on something, just that I don't know. | | |
| Calculus is really hard for me, especially with ab and bc all in one year. The AP test seemed to me the monster hunting in my mind. But it turns out that I no longer able to handle it anymore. Finally, I failed, it felt like I am the most useless person in the world for a period of time. I turned to my bio teacher and cried, for so long that I didn't remember. It was my calculus teacher's mercy to give me a C- instead of a F (there is no D's in my school, anything below a 70% = F), or else my GPA would drop to a 2.8~9. Because of that C-, I am able to have a 3.5 at least. My AP Cal teacher is so nice, she let me stay in her class this term to finish calc ab. However, she won't give me any grades for it. Then next term I would be retaking Pre Calc and take AP Calc as a junior, then she would replace my grade. Throught this time, my teachers had been helping me a lot. My AP Calc teacher is awsome helping me, bio teacher was there listening to me all time and my last year's english teacher, he was giving advice all the time. Thank God for putting such amazing teachers in my life. | | |
| SAT meeting tonight, lost some hw hours again ^^ but anyways, don't really feel like doing it....
Saw my cousin's personal msg " happy bday to me" humm, i guess in 2 days, i will need to type happy bday to me too!! my bday is coming in 2 weeks, nothing special though... whats special is that my laptop would arrive in 2 weeks!! so excited!! yay!! hope it won't have any delays :S | | |
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